ME

2009-08-04T22:00:00.001+08:00

www.happyhamyy.onsugar.com

ive moved.
i cant post entry here.
cos i cant seem to change the fonts.
cant upload any pics.

this is sooo irritating !

2009-08-02T23:25:00.000+08:00

ive movedd ~

maybe

2009-07-30T21:15:00.000+08:00

lousy arh this blogger. cannot post pics.

i think im switching to somewhere elsee.

*roll eyes.

hahha

baby dont let me go ~

2009-07-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

sometime im confused.
whether what i did was right.
but at times..
i always think im right.
and everyone else is wrong.

all that shit isnt making me a better person.
but.. sometime i gotta face up
to reality..
i gotta hold responsible for
every choice i made.
whether its goood. or bad.
i shouldnt regret.
because it isnt worth being sad.
or moody. or getting frustrated
over small little things.

sometime i wish i was much more
important to you..
sometime i wish you would give
an equal treatment..
im not being sad angry or emo.
maybe i am ?
no im not. because im not crying.
crying remind me of her.
i still think of you.
how i wish your still here.
still alive.
all this shouldnt wouldnt happen..
right if your still here ?
i miss you. really......
i wanted to tell you so badly..
how im doing right now.
if only i was born earlier..
i could have nurse you..
and maybe i wont regret that much right now.
maybe i could have feel satisfied.

satisfaction is just what every
human being needs or feels or whatever.
the thing here is that..
satisfaction feeeeels goood !
hahah! dont worry. im not sad!
hahaha.

nenek keropok was here today.
serious. at around 4pm.
pooor chomel.

love u ~

lucas ?

2009-07-29T00:05:00.000+08:00

my wisdom toooth is killling me.
hate it.

and i dont really like you and you.
really.

hahhaa.
you know.
i may be those uncool ppl.
who do uncoool stuff.
because i dont really care.
but then stop ignoring me or
treat me like one. cos i dont really
like you people actually.

hahha.
love sidah.
she so cute sometime..

2009-07-21T19:08:00.000+08:00

MAN DY

2009-07-17T22:13:00.009+08:00

cupcake i make horh ! nice horh ! first time horh !

nobody nobody but you

camera also kenaaaaa ~ !!!

ahhh this one mj horh hahah MJ !!!

anak dan mak. anak nyer di sebelah kiri. MAK nyer pulak di sebelah kanan.

her usual hahhahaha.

concentrating horh hahahahah :)

these are the photos.

of what i did during my hols.

i'll upload more when im freee okay horh.

school have beeen ok!

lots of projs. usual.....

saw accident right infront of my eyes today.

okay lah.

beside me.

was in the bus.

scary.

going msia on sunday.

woooo.

going to school tmrw.

booooo.

eh nenek jual keropok tu..

ader orang kate keropok dier sedap.

hahahahaha.

k bye.

misss you boy

about luck,

2009-07-13T19:42:00.004+08:00

its not that i dont want.

its just that..

im sorry.

not my intention.

really.

school was okay.

normal.

i was late.

i wasnt really

prepared for school.

i feel like running away from

everyone.

but of cos i cant.

because im a loser.

im too lazy to blog sometime.

maybe i should delete this blog.

the proposal is boring anyway..

maybe i should give this laptop

away. to those who really need it.

like those poor kidss. not in singapore pls.

maybe in africa or somewhere.

sometime i feel sooo lucky.

creator

2009-07-09T01:11:00.004+08:00

eh..

yes arhh! can updaate now since i can post some pics.

i like it.

ive beeen rotting at home this week.

okay not really lah.

only 2 days at home feeel like

thousand of years. hahaha.

ive been watching online movies.

i watch ice age today. in cinema.

hahah.
sux uh.
i love transformer.
but tooo bad SOMEONE..
doesnt get the story.
hahah.

tmrw gonna make some cakes

cupcakes or sumting..

weeee.

excited pe besok.

wonder hows xh is doing..

hope she is fine.

school starting sooon.

damn.

the other day...

i was sooo inpatient.

i cant wait to start school.

but now.... hahahahha.

dunno lah okay.

thinking of school.. projs..

makes me.. sick ?

okay
im broke.

i need moneyy

aarghhh !

i neeeed to shop.

i got no life.

bye

2009-07-06T15:58:00.002+08:00

i cant seem to upload any pics.
why ?
can someone please tell me why ?
issit because of blogger
or my laptop or what?

wont be updating.
unless this prob is solve.

stupid blogger

random

2009-07-02T21:58:00.003+08:00

mcm kerek jek...

HAHAHAAHHAHAHAH !

b i love you.
siol lah bby.
hahahaha.

no. im not making fun of you.
its just that..
its funny.

b stands for what arh ?
baby ?
hubby ?
babi ?
badak ?
busok ?

b stands for BEAT IT arh.
hahah k lame.

isssit ?

2009-06-29T00:55:00.004+08:00

i dont really know what this is...
but it feeeeeeeels damn gooood.

i like this feeeling alot.
really.

i wont get sick of it.
in fact...
i want more !

i thank god..
for bringing you
in my life.

i feeeeel so lucky!
i know its tooo early.
but wth ?
you gotta BELIEVE.
and yeah.
I BELIEVE.
i wannna be with
youuuu foreverrrrr.
if...there is such thing
as forever.
whatever.

okay i think i better stfu.
before some b* thinks
im some cheapo/bitchy,
blogging about this kind of thing...

and oh i watch transformer !!
twice !!
megan fox is hot.
but i think billie is hotter !

:D

HAPPY WORKING
HAPPY SCHOOLING
HAPPY HOLIDAY
HAPPY HAPPY !

teh susu

2009-06-24T17:11:00.006+08:00

I MISSSS YOU !

i got to stop holding on to the past.

and move on.

i know you might be thinking

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS BITCH TALKING ABOUT ?

PAST ? WHAT PAST SIA ?

nonsense.

sometime im so...

stupid like someone with no brain.

cannot think.

cannot brainstorm cannot....

whats the point ?

tell me.

whats the point ?

doing all that.

having all that feeling.

that emotion.

but in the end you got nothing.

like how i really thought

we could last forever.

but in the end...

im too stupid.

or maybe you.

i dont know.

and then now yr back.

because (i dont know the reason)

maybe god.

not that i dont believe in god.

i do.

i am.

i will.

i know i do some stupid stuff.

oh come on.

i bet some of you people

out there might have done

some bad stuff.

maybe worst.

some sins..........

whatever.

yeah.

okay the point here is...

WHATS THE POINT ?

someone told me this before,

"you live not to make others happy.. "

and im trying to hold on to that.

im on cloud nine everyone.

find me there.

if you need me.

but i bet YOU PEOPLE

out there wont.

because im just a piece of shit.

u guys found.

yeah shit lying on the floor.

found it and throw it.

worst still, just leave it there.

and...

yeah because ,

nurul hamidah salleh = a friend

(NOT)

i was never your friend right ?

stup ID

2009-06-23T17:20:00.003+08:00

i cant wait to just get this attachment over with.
and then i can just...
3 more days. endure ~

and i really really reallyyyy
like being with you.
you make me feeeeeel
like as if im.....
and i really like it.
a lot.

love the weather!

every morning

2009-06-21T15:58:00.003+08:00

HAPPY FATHERS DAY !

hmm.

wanna know something ?

i think im a boring person.

i miss my lovelys !!!!!!!!!
lets go ubin again or sumting....
i miss my babes !!!!!!!!!
lets go picnic....
i miss my BABABABABAABA !
hahahaha.
lets go flea market and hang around and
talk chit chat.

i missssssss all the fun i had.
where is it ?
have you seen F.U.N ?
missing.
call 99999999999999.

whatever.
im working tmrw.
boring ~
sux.

im going to mak's place later.
hahaha.
i got no present for dad.
im so sad.
im soo broke.
i dont feel like going out
anymore.
maybe i'll find a job during
my hols ~
or maybe i just rot and die
at home.

my life have beeeen soooo
boring so far.
i feeeeel like im dead alrdy.
my soul hanging around
town... ps... esp.. wtf..

i got no money to even
buy cigs.
omg. first time or what.
sial lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

nak mati arh.
macam maner nk turn 18 ni.
tk de duit.
hahahahahahahh.
so 18= no money= die arh.

okay i think im gonna find a job.
dont care.

and i dont want to go back
to NUH again anymore pls.
im soo sick of that place.
and i wannna go sit at the osim chair
with xuanah darling. wo ai ni.

omg i dunno whats wrong with me.
maybe im tired.
lack of sleep i guess.
yesterday i went p.r park.
and it reminds me of afiq's bday!!
alah best eh. nk gik lagi.

hahaha okay nonsense arh me.
wonder where is everyone ?!?!?!
helllo ?? everyone celebrate
fathers day meh.
walau..............

chomel i love you.
can i bring chomel out
with me. to have my dinner
at mak's place.
can i ?
haiz.

i think im sooooooooo manje lah.
tk leh ang siol.

bye.

we are young we run free ~

2009-06-19T21:06:00.012+08:00

MY BABES ~

So after "exam", i went out with my babes.

and fuck.

i miss my missy xuanah on the first day of

attachment. walauu.

i dont mind failing my attachment

to be with you in the second batch horh.

dont mind horh.

but tiring horh for me.

meet up soon okay sweety.

MY BABYGIRLS ~

the next day i met up with them.

god i misss them !!

dunno wads happening to my face.

so many pimple sia!

anyway,

attachment was never fun.
sux sux sux.
okay lah get to see cute babies.
sometime...
irritating.
but whatever.
the staff all were pretty nice
to us, well for me i guess.
shit. i forgot to call kbs.
damn.

im so tired and sleepy.

im gonna catch

DRAG ME TO HELL !!!!

weee

and transformer.

and fathers day

coming sooon !

omg! im broke !

TC!

you make me feel like im a whole again

2009-06-14T02:12:00.004+08:00

finally its over.

thanks to all that stuff,

i got a major problem

with my acne.

i wanna thanks this particular person.

err for..

being my motivation ;D

hehehe

k mentel.

anyway. i had fun with my babes

and my babygirls.

hehe miss you nad,meet soon.

attachment starting soon.

can i just hide under my pillow.

haha ok i dont know why ?

just feel like doing it.

maybe im sleepy.

gnite !

tak leh ang siolszxxxx hahahahahahha

2009-06-09T12:43:00.002+08:00

come to think of it lady gaga

do remind me of boy george or something.

hahahaahah twins seperate at birth.

hahahahaah cb!

sorry gaga fans ~

THING OF THE PAST ~

2009-06-03T17:08:00.001+08:00

busy busy weeeek.

tired tired weeek.

red bull weeeek.

junk foood weeek.

white hair week.

ct weeek.

im soo lazy.

i cant studyyy.

im gonnna have fun after my attachment.

dont care.

GOOOD LUCK ~

red red winee ~

2009-05-31T23:24:00.003+08:00

my weekends pretty muchhh BO RING ! no fun no nothing.

i stay at home on a freaking saturday. okay not really.

i went jogging and den i went hosp. yeah got into an accident.

hahhahaha. duh. k not. my dad.. sumting wrong with his drainage.

blah blah blah. and i could not go in. because this freaking security

guard was like...

" where r you going ? "
" go lobby lah inside.. cannot go in? "

" no..i mean whr you going ? who is yr relative ? "

" huh ? what relative ? my dad is in de emergency ward thr.. i want to go to the lobby.. "

" hmm... ok line up. take temp.. "

SO ME AND MUM N SIS LINE UP LORH.

DEN HE COME TO US AGAIN

" actually not allowed more deN 2 person go in.."

" what 2 person go in whr ? i just want to sit at the lobby. "

NOW I VERY ANGRY ALRDY.

HE STARTED TALKING SUM NONSENSE SHIT.

I ROLL MY EYES AND WALK AWAY W MY MUM N SIS.

SIAL LAH.

CB MF. DEN LIKE DAT ATTACHMENT, I COME WITH MY 2 OTHER FRNS.

DEN WE CANNOT GO IN ARH ?

MF CB KANINA.

WHATS THE DIFF SIA 3 PERSON 2 PERSON ?

IF I GO IN FIRST, FOLLOWED BY MY MUM N SIS.. SAME WHAT DUMB HEAD.

AND HE WAS WEARING A WIG.

AND FREAKING MFKNNCCB. IF THERE IS ANY SWINE FLU,

YEAH I THINK THE VIRUS WOULD STUCK IN YR FREAKING "HAIR" FIRST.

okay enough..

was telling mmyself to study for common test

over the weekends.

but fuck.. no time. hahah.

okay not no time.

just freaking lazy.

HAMIDAH, I THINK YR GONNA FAIL YR CT

IF YOU CONT WITH THIS KIND OF LAZY ATTITUDE.

HAHAHA.

CEEYYY potential bcome tcher.

okay lah BYE.

you were always there for me,

2009-05-29T23:57:00.006+08:00

HALO HALO HALO... i love beyon baby.

oh well spend my weekdays with my two lovely darling.
duh..u guys shld know who.
jenab and xuan ba.
hahaha. been having too many breakss.
and bumping into afiq.
alahhh i miss her lorh.
miss my babygirls a lot.

sooo my weeekends so far have beeen prettyy okay.
been watching moviesss.
angels n demon.
uninvited.
natm2.
hahahaha.

i think friday = xuanidah day hahaha sial lah.

dunno what to say.
i cant take any long journey bus ride.
giddy headache lah what lah.
smell of beer lah.
disgusting couple cannot wait have sex lah.
stupid slow bus driver lah.
dunno lah.

i wanna die sia today hungry like fuck.
go ps all restaurant full.
stupid pizza hut.
i was like FUCCCKKKK OFFF.
and she keep on calling me ?
whats wrong with these kind of ppl ?

and the other day i found a hp.
i tot of selling it away.
so i got money.
my blooody sister go tell my mother.
now my dad wants the phone.
i dont understand lah she.
cannot keep secret.
and yeah my dad was admitted
in the hosp because of stupid reason.
and i was actually against the idea.
but whatever.
he was sooo sick. and i almost want to cry lah.
okok hes home now.
no worries.

chomel have beeen a very psycho kitty.
siao. but i love her.
cos she always make me laugh.
hahahahahahahahahah.

okay common test coming.
study study study.
going jogging tmrw eh ?
making jogging my hobby.
since i dont have any hobby.
okay.

normal. hahah

normal also. fav banglessss. haha.

hahahahahahahahah ! ah bah !

start following jenab

xuan bah also

stress lorh with the bills. die horh no money

dunnno why this pic here. was waiting for xuan hahaha den so ugly SO I MAKE BLUR

sorrry lah u guys say so ugly ask crop. den so funny.so i put cute butterfly.

my babes hahahahah babes.

my xuan bah !!

OKAY BYEEE TC =)

make out club

2009-05-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

See there was alan,
He caught my eye
the second that he past me
I kissed him once
Then he started to harrase me
He called all night long
I had to buy a brand new phone

and after that there was Luke
He had a twin bro, Kook
I bumped into them at Cam's gettin pizza
The greatest night of my life
Schleps to rock that kill two birds

and there was Eric
He had the stankest breath in Singapore,
I tried to slip him tic tacs,
But they were scared of him
And when we made out
I always had to plug my nose

and I supose your know the brother
Shoot, I swear by hand and God
I only kissed him
I gotta foot fetish
But he gotta lotsa blisters
I mean hammer time feet.
You think he had walked from Boca Raton

They say I gotta change my evil ways
And I'm workin hard at it every day but
No matter what I do
I seem to make the same mistakes that I'm tryin not to
If love is just a game that people play
And practice make perfect is what they say but
No matter what I do
I seem to make the same mistakes that I'm tryin not to

haha k whatever lame.
does it remind you of someone ? hahha.

what was it then ?

2009-05-26T22:20:00.008+08:00

TODAY,

WHEN I WAKE UP.
I SAW THIS HUGE SPIDERWEB
ON MY BLANKET.
AND I SHOUT FOR HELP.
I CALLLED MY MUM.
BUT BUT NO ONE COULD HEAR ME.
SO I DECIDED TO SHINE ON IT
TO GET A BETTER VIEW.
I SAW THIS GREEN SPIDER.
IT WAS HUGE !!! ON MY BLANKET.
I SHOUT AGAIN... BUT NO ONE
COULD HEAR ME.
I TRY LOOKING AROUND FINDING STUFF.
AS QUICKY AS POSSIBLE TO KILL THE
SPIDER.
AND THEN DE NEXT THING I KNOW...
WHEN I TURN BACK.
THERE WASNT ANY SPIDER.
NOT EVEN ANY SPIDERWEB.

WHAT ?!?!?!?
YES. THEN WHAT WAS THING THAT I SAW ?
I QUICKLY GET UP FROM BED.
AND KEEEP ON WONDERING..
WHETHER IT WAS A DREAM OR NOT.
BUT IT WASNT A DREAM !
AND DID I REALLY SHOUT FOR HELP?
I DONT KNOW. I WAS CONFUSED.
haha funny. not its not a joke or ghost
story hahaha. ghost story or what!
hahahaha. okok. the thing is..
it really happen. maybe i was too tired.
i see nonsense stuff like that.
oh whatever.
hahahaha.

OH I PASSS MY PRACTICAL EXAM.
THANKS TO WHOEVER WHO HAD WISH
ME GOOOD LUCK !
LOVEEE IT. IM SOO TIRED.
I SLEEEEEP LIKE PIG TODAY.
OHOH.

I LOVEE MEGABITES CHEEESECAKE.
ITS DAMN HUGE LORH.
DAMN SOFT.
DAMN NICE.
AND THE BEST THING WAS..
IT COST 4.50 AND I TOOOK
5 HOURS TO FREAKING FINISH IT.

yr liesssss is haunting me,

2009-05-25T21:46:00.003+08:00

my heart sink..cey.

this morning.

when i loook at how

he force himself to be strong.

sweeeep those leaves.....

oh well,

some of you may not like old people.

but i dont hate them.

instead i pity them.

i know. not a goood thing.

today after school.

i went in to my sis room.

was alone. actually

my intention was to find my kitty.

but instead i found THE ALBUM.

yeah i almost cry.

loooking at her picture.

not that i hate her.

but im just sad.

i dont know.

i ought to be strong.

i still cant believe all this

shit happen.
every single day i told myself.

to just forget it.

and loook at the brighter side.

yeah i did it.

till... just now.....

fuck. i shouldnt have loook at those pics.

ichy fingers.

still dont know whether she know

about this or not. hmmmmmm....

oh well.

gottta be strong!

tomorrow is my practical exam!

wish me luck everyone !

thank you very much.

i very scared.

cos i know that this time im sooo dead.

sooo gonna flunk uh.

TC =)

your love alone is not enough not enough

2009-05-23T00:35:00.007+08:00

YOUR LOVE ALONEEE IS NOT ENOUGH NOT ENOUGH..

wahh tamak pe.

stingy. hahahahahahaahah.

tak leh ang arh orang tamak.

tak suke sial.

anyway....

if you miss somebody......

that means.....

you....

have....

feeling...

for...

that...

somebody..

eh ?

you know..

whenever im at bus stop...

waiting...

for...

the bus...

im always thinking...

about...

my...

life.....

like...

asking..

myself...

question..

like...

AM I GONNNNA DO THOSE STUPID STUFF AGAIN

WHEN I GROW OLD ?

AM I GONNNNA DIE TMRW ?

AM I HAPPY ?

HAHAHAHHAA.

the happy part funny uh.

OKAY DONT KNOW WHAT TO BLOG.

LIFE BEEEN SUCKY UH.

MY PRACTICAL EXAM NEXT WEEK.

PLEASE WISH ME LUCK.

COS I REALLY NEED IT.

& OH YAH IF YOU GUYS ARE WONDERING....

WHAT AM I UP TO TMRW....

OH WELL...

NOTHING FUN...

NOTHING INTERESTING...

IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL....

YES FREAKING...

SCHOOL..

TO DO SOME PROJECTS...

AND PRACTICE MY FREAKING SKILL...

ALRIGHT

TAKE CARE CUTIESSS.

my lips like sugahhhhhhh ~

2009-05-19T23:08:00.008+08:00

get back

2009-05-18T13:48:00.002+08:00

had fun love it.

in school now.

byee!

FUCK FUCK FUCK ME

2009-05-14T22:18:00.004+08:00

CAN SOMEONE JUST KILLME RIGHT NOW ?!?!?
IM FUCKING ANGRY.
SAD.

FUCK LAH.

I JUST DROP MY FREAKING ESTEE LAUDER NIGHT REPAIR.
WHICH FUCKING COST ME ABOUT $175

THE THING IS MADE OF GLASS. AND HELL YEAH.
IT BROKE INTO PIECES.

CAN YOU JUST KILL ME RIGHT NOW. PLS.

IM SO FREAKING ANGRY.
I WANNA CRY.
AND CRY.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

me, as usual going in the kitchen...disturbing my sis and mum. sis was practicing/preparing/cooking for her O level F&N. & i found mozarella cheeese

2009-05-14T21:37:00.006+08:00

haha siak title so long

CONVO BETWEEN ME AND MUM

ME : ehhh mozarella cheese ! besokk spag eh ?? okay yes !
( tmrw spag arh ? )

MUM : eh eh sejak biler ader janji nak buat spag besok ?
( since when i promise you i'll cook spag tmrw ? )

ME : aderrrr. ibu lupe... janji kita !!!!
( got ! you forget !! our promiseeeee ! )

MUM : ketawe
(laugh)

ME : eh janji kita lagu kan ? saper nyanyi ? exist eh ?
( our promise is a song right ? who sing arh ? the group exist arh ? )

MUM : huh ? exist ? bukannn lah. entah saper name name budak kecik tuu..
( huh ? exist ? no lah. dont know who that kid name )

ME & SIS : ACHIIKKKKK ! HAHAHAHAHAH.

haha.k. im so random.
so here you go ~
STOP MY PLAYLIST.CLICK THIS THING BELOW PLAY IT. VERY NICE MALAY SONG HORH HAHAHA JIWANG

last time i used to loveeee this achik guy horh.
den he got sing with this chick. hahha sial chick.
with this girl name nana. i likeee ~
hahah last time lorh.....
achikkk horh quite cute horh i find him.
hahaha

so today in school.
found out i got a problem.
with.
my.
optic.
nerve.

uwek.

we just dont care

2009-05-13T17:43:00.002+08:00

today in school.
yes i went to school.
even though i got a freaking two days MC okay !
hahaha k show off.

yes today in school.
was waiting for may may sayang
at atrium.
suddenly... yes...
suddenly.. i heard..
yes.. i heard..

".... lets make loveee.. "

awwwwh. yes. john legend.
ooo <3_<3
im in love with pda.
all over again. hehehehehe.

sayang john legend.
but hes kinda perv.
but cute though.

dont know what the hell im doing right now.
hahaha nonsense.
always like that.

you know..
sometime i wish
im a make up artist.
god im so into make ups.
aarghhh !

i
neeed
money.
yes everyone.
need money.
i can buy the whole
bobbi brown.
cos i loveeee their eye shadows !!

you know last time.
this bitch ask me why i use make ups
like often ?
she say i wanna act like kakak2.

wtf. can you just fuck off.
im a girl. for heaven sake.
what ? do u expect me to play footballs ?
or what? hang out with the guys and talk about soccer and sex
all the time ?
hahahahah and yes i cant leave
the house without a freaking eyeliner.
yes total biatch.
k unless im sick or sick or yeah sick.

hahaha dont know why everyone is against me
or sumting.

i miss my babygirls.
dunno why. maybe i need the whole day with them.

anyway babes.....
i feel like going sentosa with you guys !!
hehehe

:D

because h,

2009-05-11T21:30:00.004+08:00

temple ?

a freaking temple ?
you
want
to
bring
me
to
a
freaking
temple ?
what ?
are you out of your mind ?

hahahahaha!

anyway i got lots of project to be done.
and no i havent do any of it.
blah blah blah.

so today i come to school for nothing.
because most of the class were cancelled.
so i decided to catch a movie in school.
its beeeeen ages sia !
last time me and afiq always watch movie
horh in school. i like horh.
every friday horh.
yah horh.

my birthday is august 11.
and im turning eighteen this year.
i really cant wait.
because i can become kakak2 club already.
i can smoke until i die.
drink until i die also.
drive car. ride bike. drive bus.
drive mrt. everything horh.
i like ~

i think im a nice person also.
because its very hard for me to say NO.
esp when they are yr friends.
wah piang. hahahahahahahaha .

maybe im gonna join HS idol.
because im gonna be a singer when i grow up.
not.
get it ? i was just foooling around.
was never serious.
becausse i wanna chill in with you, dude.
cos yr eyes. damnit. yr freaking eyes.
love it. yr hair damnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
yr muscle on yr hand.
wooooo i like more. wanna sleep.
comfy. hehehehe kiss you all over.
like some desperado pervert.
bitch. stalker.
so me. hahah stalker.

yeah i always stalk you people around.
scared ?

muahahahahahah
i havent even tell you about
thoseeee vooodddooooo dolls i have.
at home. in my room. under my bed.
muaahahahahahh.
because i wanna be a freaking bomoh.
when i grow up.
not.

eee rihanna got naked picture.
like vanessa hudgen eh ?
eeee i saw lah.
disgusting sia.
pussy and boobs.
dont mix well.
maybe pus with dick.
hahaha or booby with dick
instead of pusssy. hahah.

k enough pervert me.

OH IM SICKXXSZ BTW.
XD >>>> DONT REALLY UNDERSTAND WHATS THAT.
XD XD XD XD XD :D(THIS ONE I UNDERSTAND)

so you

2009-05-11T00:48:00.006+08:00

wow.

yr very nice !

i like ~

nicest person so far.

hehehehehehehehehehheheheheh :D

okay mentel.

im okay now.

feeling much better.

thanksssss.

to those people who cared.

i loveeee you guys !

a lot.

my babygirls.

my babes.

my girlfriends.

my boyfriends.

my chomel.

XOXO !

HUGS N KISSES BTW.

im sad right now like really sad im crying right now sooo this is gonna be a very emotional post

2009-05-06T23:20:00.006+08:00

5th May 2009

the worst day of my life so far.

it hurts.
like fucking hell.

no. its not something you people can ever feeel.
no not unless yr in the same boat as me.
but i bet you arent in the same boat.

i dont know what to react.
i dont know what to think.
i dont know what to feel.
i dont know what i should do.
i dont know who to talk to.

the moment i saw those names.
the moment i saw THE WORD.
the moment i heard them talk.
the moment i saw her cry.
the moment.
yes the moment.
the moment i will never forget.
it keeeps flashing in my mind.
i cant think right.
haywire ~

its likeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
a dream. no.
nightmare.

i really hope it was just a dream.
i wish i didnt take a look at that book.
i wish i was stupid.
and not kpo.
i wish that book hadnt been there.
i wish this all stuff is not happening to me.
i wish i was blind so that i didnt get to see those
words.

i feeeeel so alone right now.
i dont know why.

i feeeel like a baby right now.
crying.

and f.y.i
its not another boyfriend girlfriend break up thing okay.
fuck that shit.

its not as hurtful as this.
cos its about me right now.
me mememememememem !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its like i cant accept it you know.
but i know i must.
like totally a different person.

i gotta be strong.
i NEED to be strong.

fuck.

im blue

2009-05-04T20:45:00.003+08:00

wah piang.
i cant upload pics.

k whatever.
today is the first day of school.
k not.

actually i got a lot of things to say.
cos im always thinking about everything.
and dats one of the reason
why im having this bad headache right now.

im always full of jealousy.
i dont know why.
and im full of anger.
im always swearing.
and im sensitive today.
why ?
you wanna know why ?
because it was cold.
and i was hungry.

and im so stress
i got a lot of projs to be done.
and all i can do is just
i dunno. nothing.

another rant.
another cb mf.
like some bitch.
who got no life.
picking on others.
k maybe not others.
but me.
and another bitch.
who thinks shes like
freaking perfect.
like she know everyone.
and do everything.
like everything everyone = her

and oh sometime its just hard
for you to trust this person.
due to the bad past.
and haiyah life is so complicated
sometimes.

headache arh.
like sometime you gotta do
stuff to please others.
in order to lead a happy life.
wait. will that make me happy
then ?
maybe ?
because others are.
and so i will ??

fuck.

nonsense bye
oh i bought new specs today.
and i'll be doing the
exercise ? xh told me about.
:D

no it wasnt a dream

2009-05-03T19:15:00.006+08:00

pretty busy with school project and stuff.

last week was pretty erm awesome ?

i dont know. normal i dont know

how to describe. whatever.

the other day i skip class to

go and catch wolverine.

i got 2 free tix. gv gold class mind you.

wooohooo. anyway expiry date was

may 2009. i went de day before the

expiry date. haha yess.

rushing giler.

so it was superb.

the osim chair.

k lah, look alike w/o

the massage and stuff.

we were being served.

i was miss rich.

woo.

anyway thanks for

accompanying me.

sadly no one wanted to.

at first. so i gotta ask you

along last minute im so sorrry.

i had fun.

i meet my babygirls on labour day.

sorry sayangs, no clothes

to exchange. next time k.

next time.

and i went to this gig before i meet them.

hahahahaahahahahahahahah.

can you believe it ?

hahahahahahahahahahahaha.

and i eat tulang wooo yummy.

thanks =)

and then de next day i meet up with

the babes. to do our

school projects. went hpb for temp taking.

hahaha. only.

k lah actually to borrow stuff at the lib.

sadly closed.

went vivo coffeee bean and do our projs.

i went for the anugerah audition today ......

k lah no hahahahah joking ! hello !

didnt do much today.

eat alot. blah blah.

now im home. bored.

anyway im having this bad

headache. like migraine.

for the past 3 days.

and i tot of jogging today.

but too bad this freaking headache

is killing me.

i need a lot of new stuff.

new glasses.

m.a.c make upsssss.

new bra

new diet plan

new thermometer

new piercing

new shoe

new clothes (duh a must)

new hair (no lah im not botak)

k bye people have fun tomorrow

schooling. working. or nothing.

muah ! :)

S I N S ~

2009-04-29T16:58:00.005+08:00

no i wasnt sad yesterday.

just tired.

like right now.

hate school.

decided to skip classs.

went home.

above pics r taken last week.

look at me.

so fake.

hate myself.

sso tired.

alot of assignments to be done.

group projects.

wah fuck.

friday is holiday.

thinking ~

end of the world...

coming soon.

are you scared ?

because i am.

2009-04-28T22:22:00.001+08:00

sad.

HB N !

2009-04-27T19:21:00.006+08:00

N A D I A

HAPPPY HAPPPY HAPPY !

EIGHTEENN 18 18 18 !

BIRTHDAY BIRDAY BRRDAY!

NAD SAYANG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANK YOU.

& I LOVE YOU.

I HOPE YOU HAD FUN.

MUAH ! <33333>

im not mean im just living my life

2009-04-22T19:55:00.003+08:00

i was in the classroom.
sitting.
beside my xuan hui sayang.

and then suddenly my tcher came up to me.
she was standing infront of me and said,

" HAMITAH ! yr v sexy. "
" i can see everything from up here. "

erm i was like.. WOW! aRE you like turn on by me or what ?

and then she was like,

" Come let me give you a piece of advice. "

and i quickly said,

" err yeah just the way i like it ? "

haha.

okay whatever. lame shit.
i think shes turn on by me or something.

i mean.. come on..
my parents doesnt say anything about it ?
they arent against it or something.

anyway its not as if im showing off my tits or what.
wtf ?

get a life horny bitch.

urgh. okay.
anyway. im really happy right now.
with my life.
ex boyfriend shouldnt be in my dictionary.
seriously.

i really hate you right now.
i dont know why.
maybe because ive move on ?
or something ?

stop bothering me and asking me
or telling me stuff like
"YOU GOT A BF RIGHT ? RIGHT RIGHT ?"
fuck off.
get a life.

2009-04-21T23:55:00.004+08:00

thats my bitch.

haha k lah tk.

the other day me n my cuz

went to watch

fast n furious 4. hmm.

sad. dissapointed.

whatever.

schools a bore.

what do u expect ?

i miss afiq since first day of sch.

sux.

xh babe ask me a qn.

and it got me thinking.

haha.

its weird. after all those

stuff n shit, i still have this weird

feeling for you.

and i know im not gonna

do anything about it.

cos you seem pretty happy

with yr life right now.

and i know i gotta move on.

but its hard.

because hahaha its something that

you cant force yrself to do it.

haha k whatever.

i think youve forgotten abt me

hahahahaha

funny.

i miss my lovelys.

and i cant wait for friday.

and have i ever mention

that school sux ?

life dont sux.

cos you sux ?

have i ?

no ?

i dunno.

hahaha weird.

i need to breakdown

2009-04-20T03:29:00.002+08:00

a few more hours.
i dont really look forward to school.
maybe. i dont know.
i need more time.
i didnt get to be in the same
lect as afiqbaby.
gonna miss you badly ~

i dont know lah.
i miss everyone.
wonder if they miss me
as much as i miss them.
wasted.

i dont think im a good friend.
i think im the biggest bitch ever.
because a friend,
yes a friend... should be there
when yr feeling down.
not only happy times.
but sad too.
and i dont think im doing any of the shit.
im busy doing stuff like what also i dunno.
i dunno.

wheres everyone ?
i wonder.
maybe they think im a total biatch.
because im mean.
and i swear around.
maybe because im too straight forward ?
am i ?
am i ?
or maybe im always not serious?
or maybe im too fierce?

what issit ?
come on.

i cant go to sleep because
i cant.

*sigh*

i love you god.

move on

2009-04-18T18:41:00.009+08:00

wow.
i couldnt believe myself either.

ever had regrets ? duh.
stupid bitch.
hmm.
but all you can do is smile.
because it happened.
you cant change anything.
err maybe the future ?
i dont know. im to blame.
emo singaporean.

well today i feel like hugging
my mummy and kiss her all over.
i know i wanted _ to go far far away.
but i cant bear to leave her alone.
i know im gonna miss
her like fuck.
whatever. so i love my mums cooking.
hahah cb.
fav food: mums cooking.

hahaha i remember last time
i used to write about my biodata
inside ALMOST all my friends diary sia.
hahaha.
i miss them.

WANTED

Name : Nurul Hamidah Salleh
First Cry : 11 AUGUST 1991 ( gimme present horh )
P.O.B (place of birth sia) : KANDANG KER BAU TAIK
Stay : Blk 375 Clementi Ave 4
Tel : ask me!
H/P : ask me lah !

CRUSH : SECRET
ADMIRER : SECRET

FAVOURITE
Fav Food : mums cooking arh aper lagi
Fav Drink : plain water
Fav Colour : purple
Fav Number : zero

FRIENDS
100 % : BUBU! AFIQ NAD SID etc..
90 % : XH JEN MAY2 etc..
0 % : MADONNA

i think its a waste of time.
i dont know. i just feel
so useless right now.
feel so down right now.
hahaha.
im always making things
worser n worser.
im sucha loser.
im sucha stupid bitch.
i wish i got this
secret place under my bed.
i can just hide there forever.
i'll go out when i think everyone
has forgotten about me being
exist in this sick world.

oh and stop telling me whats right
and whats wrong.
whether i'll go to hell or not.
and telling me stuff about my
religion. seriously. thanks but
no thanks.
i dont need that.

bye.

loving gaga

2009-04-13T23:53:00.002+08:00

LISTEN TO THIS LADY GAGA SONG !

nice i likeee !!!!

come on !!!!

HAH, BITCH!

2009-04-13T02:19:00.001+08:00

SOMETHING THAT NO ONE SHOULD KNOW.

oh well,
monday.
gotta stay home.
and clean my rooom.

school starting soon.
actually.
im kinda excited.
holidays r boring.

sick n tired of having fun.

whatever.
im feeling so bitchy today.

UNSTOPPABLE DIVA

2009-04-10T13:15:00.004+08:00

-
come come pause my playlist and try looking at these vids below !

WE GOT CHOICE,

2009-04-10T11:55:00.004+08:00

BYE BYE SUCKERS FROM WARD _ 1.

YOU KNOW.

ITS SAD.

WHEN YOU WORK SOOO SOOO HARD.

8 HOURS OF STANDING.

LACK OF SLEEP.

AND STUFF.

BUT IN THE END YOU DONT GET WHAT YOU WANT.

I JUST THINK I SHOULDNT HAVE WORK SO HARD.

SOMETIMES WHEN YOU DONT WORK SO HARD YOU GET MORE-THAN-GOOD RESULT.

BUT WHEN YOU WORK SO SO HARD YOU DONT GET WHAT YOU WANT.

IM PRETTY SAD ABOUT HER.

THE WAY SHE THINKS TOOO.

SO UNFAIR.

BUT ITS OKAY. I DONT FUCKING MIND ACTUALLY.

COS I HAD FUN YEST NIGHT WITH MY GFS.

LAUGHING LIKE MAD WOMEN.

WHATEVER HAMY.

IM GONNA HAVE FUN AGAIN TONIGHT.

BACK TO MY NORMAL ROUTINE.

MUAHAHAHA.

SCHOOL STARTING SOON.

SO WHAT ?

I CAN STILL HAVE FUN.

UNLIKE ATTACHMENT.

IT SUX.

I DONT MIND NOT BEING PAID.

BUT THE TIREDNESS.

AND THE "GOOD" PEOPLE AROUND.

EEEE YE. JUST MAKES ME SICK N TIRED.

OKAY THREE WEEEKS WERE FAST.

HAD FUN WITH THEM.

MUAHAHAHA.

OKAY BYE.

TC PEOPLE ~

what what what ?

2009-04-05T20:11:00.001+08:00

mesti arh .

lawa pe.

of cos you'll go to her.
shes soo much prettier.
nicer.
everything goood.

i dont like having this kind of feeling.

JEALOUSY cb babi.

SEXCITED EH ?

2009-04-05T12:54:00.002+08:00

(muke nk terberak)

im super excited !

weee wuu.

four more days baby ~

HAVE FUN PEOPLE :)

babyG !

2009-04-03T21:56:00.004+08:00

HAHA !
SORRY UGLY!
LAPTOP MAH. NO MOUSE.
NO PEN.
SO LAZY.
USE STICKMAN.

MUAH !

bank book

2009-03-26T22:00:00.002+08:00

MISS YOU ~

LOVE YOU ~

need yr hug badly.

squeeeze yr tits badly.

haha no lah.

attachment sux lah duh

so fucking tired.

like dunno arh cb mf.

its a pitttttyy!

2009-03-23T18:57:00.002+08:00

well well well,
first day of attachment
was okay.

didnt do anything much.
but still sleepy.
and tiring.

was otw back home,
when i saw this poor kitty cat.
you know.
i cant see poor poor kitty
or even people.
i'll tend to be sad.
eventually i'll cry.
yes.

this remind me of this " special " boy
i used to like back during my pri sch days.

yes. he was my first crush.
hahahahahaha.
okay he wasnt erm normal.
like any other kids.
no.
he wasnt like you and me.
yes i pity him.

and then i started having feelings for him.
hahah !
cos one day, otw back from sch,
i went inside a mama shop to buy sum sweets,
and then.... there he was!
with his lil brother.
okay he was in sum special school.
and his lil bro was in the same pri sch as me!
haha.
so his lil bro wanted to buy sumting, sum toy.
he actually wanted to use that money to buy sum
food, but in de end he bought for his lil bro
this cute lil toy. hahaha.

omg! from den on i had this cute lil crush on him!
hahahaha.
craziest thing i ever did was to give him some cute
love letter. haha thru his lil bro. funny.
his lil bro and friends always make fun of me.
but i dont freaking care.
after school i always look forward
to bumping him somewhere at the mama shop!

haha how cute !
how dumb!

bye

HAPPY BIRDDAY SIDBABY

2009-03-21T16:16:00.008+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY NORASIDAH SAYANG !

sorry if im late, but dont worry i still love you.
i thank god for having you in my life.
i thank you for being there as a friend for me all this while.
i appreciate this 5 yrs of friendship.
muah muah muah !
eighteen ! best pe !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dibah

2009-03-21T00:19:00.008+08:00

wow.

i never feel soo happy in my life before.
okay bedek sia!

haha.
im happy today.
even though im fucking tired.
but still happy.

mr samurai pop my bubble today.
haha funny.
looks weird now.

whatever it is it make me forget my
shitty "st james" day ! hahahaha.

boring stuff.
cockroaches everywhere.

but i still love the slumber party.

my lovelys r the best baby !

oh! & stupid result.
not in the same lect as afiqbaby.
shitty.
okay hamy!
be strong bitch !

and starting attachment
on monday.
god! another shitty.

but i still love today.
hopefully you do too!

take care :)

hanya,

2009-03-14T00:59:00.004+08:00

NEGLECTING !

yes! thats what ive been doing!

SERVE YOU RIGHT HAMIDAH!
yr just so stupid because
u always care about what other people think of you!
serve you right !
you know i hate you hamidah because,
yr the biggest sore loser i ever see
in this world.
because yr always keeping things to
yrself.

see..
see..
whats happening now ?!?!?!?!?!?!

stupid bitch.
stupid wisdom tooth.
stupid stupid stupid people.
stupid people.
stupid me! because im missing
someone whom i asked to
" go away from me "
" get out of my life "
" fuck off "

forever.
i guess.
i guess.

no im not talking about any guy or girl.
this is me.
me me me.

its like this because of me!

bye goodnight.
prettyful sleep everyone!

how i spend my hols ~

2009-03-12T18:38:00.011+08:00

Let me erm summarize what ive done during my hols so far ~

i went ikea
got lots of candles
i got to watch all-american reject live
zouk
first time sia!!
good stuffs
lots of drinking of cos
drink n drunk
get high whatever
and then i went for a night outing to sentosa
drink and drunk
lots of drink n drunk
ride with eddie
vivo
supper at botak jones with neez
drink n drunk
no shopping boo!
with my girls,afiq, sid
nad went to dubai, farewell party
surprise,pizza, bal, siti , elfa
haji lane flea market
city hall
marina square
karaokeying with yusuf and friends
late night outing
yes lots of late night outing
im turning into an owl soon
mostly just out and chill, talks
late night talks
town, town
wedding ceremony
drink & drunk
d&d with my cousin
movies
padang
clarke quay
dinner with aflaque
night outing
chill n talk
blah blah blah
most importantly
lots n lots n lots
of quality time with kecik!
hahaha.
i love her.

sidbaby birthday coming !
:)

tc

whatever

2009-03-10T16:40:00.003+08:00

LOVE SICK.

running nose.
lack of sleep.

okay fuck off everyone.
away from me.
for now.
you ! yes that boy over there.
you can fuck off too.
you know nothing about me.
so... fuck off back at you ! mf.

BYE.

i'll update soon! dont worry.

usual craving.

2009-03-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

i feel like eating A&W sia.

nak go jb. who wanna follow ?

something that i just learned,

2009-03-08T02:28:00.003+08:00

love is complicated.

it sure is.

it feels like as if yr on top of the world, flying on cloud nine.
but the next thing you know, you feel like you've been hit hard on the floor.

mcm alah susah arh nak explain.

bye.

videoss haha !

2009-03-06T17:36:00.005+08:00

right ~
this was actually posted a long time ago.
on facebook ! hahah. omg.
hahahaha sial lah.
im gonna make a new one soon.
bored bored bored ~

oh oh oh!

and i found these !

on youtube sia !

haha. was fucking long ago !

short hair sia. and my sis !

look at her ! ahahahahahah !!!!!!

quality sux also

2009-03-06T15:45:00.002+08:00

haha sorry lah i dunno how to take nice pictures !

and yes its AAR ! muahahah !

okay this is so last week ? omg !

hectic week.

theres a lot more pics. but im too lazy.

and tired. right ! i should go for a jog later.

if its not raining.

weather sux these few days .

sux ssux sux.

nadbaby going away to dubai on sunday!

oh damn im gonna miss you babe !

sidbaby birthday coming ! wow!

march march march.

attachment starting soon ?

yes shit.

i think selena gomez and demi lovato

are pretty gorgeous babe!

bye.

useless.

2009-03-02T19:37:00.003+08:00

doesnt mean i listen to this song = im horny.

doesnt mean i listen to akon right na na na = i wanna make love right now.

doesnt mean im always talking about sex = i need sex

doesnt mean i dont talk about sex = i never did sex

doesnt mean i talk in a nice manner = im happy

doesnt mean i shout = im angry

never assume anything. cos you gonna make an ass out of you and me !

sial lah ceyyy. power me. looks whos talking ~

sorry lah im just bored.

lesson learnt = not to make new friends.

ewah aper sia.

anyway kecik scratch my leg today.

i almost throw her sia, ishk.

and i dream about her yesterday. omg.

i was drunk and i bring kecik out.

then at kedai mama, i go in to buy water.

and i left her outside.

siol lah. kecik run around catching people.

i almost cried. cos i couldnt find her.

wake up and kiss her. god i cant bear to give

her back. god dont be selfish lah hamy.

but i think i fall in love with her already.

she remind me of ME when i was small.

and i feel like going ikea sia. nak shopping.

oh i need new clothes too.

money money come drop from heaven arh.

BYE.

what ?

2009-03-02T16:02:00.002+08:00

ive been kinda moody these few days.

love sick.

but dont worry i know how to have fun at the same time.

actually i got a lot to blog.

haha duh.

i mean i just got a lot to say but..

im plain lazy. hahaha .

im on hols now !

ask me out everyone !

take care !

2009-03-01T23:32:00.002+08:00

Did it happen when we first kissed?
Cause it's hurtin me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more

I should have never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, I'm spinnin round
And deep inside my tears I'll drown
I'm losin' grip, what's happenin'?
I strayed from love, this is how I feel.

bye

2009-03-01T15:54:00.001+08:00

HATE you !

2009-02-27T03:41:00.001+08:00

thank you.

thank you for yr help.

thank you for sticking w me for years n years.

thank you thank thank you thank you.

you've been a great bf.
or not.

HIP HIP ~

2009-02-26T00:34:00.002+08:00

When youre on a holiday
You cant find the words to say
All the things that come to you
And I wanna feel it too

When youre on a golden sea
You dont need no memory
Just a place to call your own
As we drift into the zone

On an island in the sun
Well be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I cant control my brain

Well run away together
Well spend some time forever
Well never feel bad anymore

I WANT TO TRAVEL AROUND THE WORLD WITH YOU!
MUAH !

H A P P Y

2009-02-24T19:36:00.004+08:00

one of the best thing that happen in my life recently.

love you.

& exams over!

PARTY TIME PEOPLE.

2009-02-24T19:00:00.001+08:00

& oh yah. get well soon yaz.

the other day we went to hosp. and i wonder whether i will be laugh at if im err sick ?hahahaha.

whatever it is. i still had fun.

i wish i was pretty like her.

i need more mutton chop!

& i need more F.U.N too please.

GOLDEN LUCK BESTEST LUCK EVERY LUCK.

2009-02-20T00:08:00.003+08:00

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE HAVING THEIR EXAMS FROM TOMORROW ONWARDS ~!!

OPPS.
I MEAN LATER ?
HEHE.

dont worry about me.
i havent even memorise
my drug calculation formula.

MUAHH !

:{

2009-02-18T13:48:00.004+08:00

how am i suppose to be studying
when all these things r bothering me ?

im so sad.
omg.

im giving up soon.
yes soon.

aim for a pass.
no more aiming for stupid A.
no point studying so hard and you
wont get an A bodoh.

never change.

2009-02-17T01:24:00.002+08:00

its not about just love.
then what is it about ?

i cant sleep because
sleeping is boring.

i cant sleep because
im always thinking.

mummy told me;
its better to stick with someone
who love you.
rather than,
sticking with someone whom you love.

im still wondering(because im growing up)
whats love ? not between a male and female.
but between a female and whatever.

sometime the person whom you thought is nice,
turns out to be grrrr evil ! mean people! mean people !
i hate !

its very hurtful..
to know that someone whom you care,
do mean things to you.
and worst still, they dont even know !
wow. shocking. power.

wait.
am i talking about myself ?
haha!

its a waste of time..
to miss someone who
dont even remember your
name or birthdate or whatsoever.

im not asking for much.
im not asking for you
to talk to me 24/7.
or to be with me 24/7.
stick together mcm ladah laleh(opps!)
no.
i dunno. i just want you to care ?
yes care ? for me? love me.
yess! not half heartedly. but !
fully. whole heartedly please.

dont tell me yr gonna save it
for later.
god, what if i die tomorrow ?
or whenever ?
you dont know.
come on.
show it to me.

anywayyy...
life dont sux.
i sux.

ME

2009-02-16T13:55:00.005+08:00

(this is me ! in school. busy.... playing pet society! hahah)

you know how some songs will remind you of something.

or even someone.

well... im yours by jason mraz remind me of

me mugging for my exams last year !

and err remind me of my happy times !

i love it whenever some songs remind me of the

happy times. i'll be soooo happy and i'll smile

from ear to ear xia !

and by the way,

the answer is ..............

NO !

i havent start revising for my final year exam.

hahaha.but im still happy. listening to jason mraz.

and how i used to be so freee like a bird. no worries about

exams. no worries about anything.

just worries about what clothes to buy and where to

go to hang out and chill. ahahahaha.

goood times.

daddy bought for mummy some roses

on valentines day.

sis bought for my parents some presents

for their 24th annyversary the next day.

how cute !

i didnt get for them anything.

im broke. no money no nothing.

oh wait. i did treat them to fish & co.

last year. hehe. now its sis turn !

dont mind at all. all i know is that

my love for them wont fade away.

ceyyy.

oh and i wanna thank xuan hui.

and jenneth.

for sticking through year 1 in ngee ann

with me. you know. im sooooo

comfortable with them that i can just

talk anything(and i mean ANYTHING!)

with them. im soooo gonna miss them

if we're gonna change classes in year 2.

take care!

we drink the fatal drop, then love until we bleeeeeed ~

2009-02-14T13:09:00.010+08:00

oh thats the BITCH ! at the right. not that sweet girl in between me and xuan sayang!

one word to describe my week : W.O.W !

i never beeeen sooo tired like this before.

yes i spend my week doing a last minute project.

all because of this BITCH ! yes. i dont care.

im not gonna blame myself or my darling friends.

im gonna blame YOU ! EVERYTHING YOU !

hope you pass yr car license, drive a car

and get into an accident and go into coma !

or stroke or whatever.
no i dont want you to die just like that !

hahahahah ! whatever bitch.

anyway i spend my stressful week

with thosee pretty ladies above in the pics.

oh shit. this is just the beginning of my

stressful week. i got like 2 more weeks? to go.

come on hamy, you can do this right ?

yes. me = motivation.

actually not me=motivation.

erm im not gonna give up.

i'll be just sad. and cry. like a crybaby.

like what i always do.

im not being emotional.

i know what you guys are thinking.

why in the fucking world is this stupid girl

being so fucking emotional whenever she blog ?

hahah well. simple.

i blog about unhappy stuff.

happy stuff are kept.

in my mind. memories.

foreverrr ~

bullshit i wrote here.

on my blog.

oh well. wont last.

i can just delete this freaking blog

anytime i want. delete. erase.

and yeah gooodbye sad angry feeling

or post or whatever shit.

but dont worry. i wont do that.for now.

im always asking god, why am i so immatured ?

hahaha.

mummy bought me a new telephone today.

to be use in my room.

but ! she forget to take it from the shop.

how cute. i dont ever want to lose her.

i dont ever wanna go far far away from her.

i dont mind she spending her time out of singapore.

but please. take dad with you, mummy.

im not being bad. i still love you. but you people wont

understand. its hard for me to explain.

im eating porridge right now.

i wanna cook for you a porridge too.

cos you've done too much for me.

i dont even know how to repay

your kindness.

oh my god. im so dependent

on you !

whatever it is, i still had fun yesterday.

even without the _ part.

TAKE CARE EVERYBODY !

HAPPY V DAY !

<33333333

GILA.

2009-02-08T21:50:00.000+08:00

AM I PYSCHO ?

TELL ME PEOPLE ! AM I ?
AM I SUFFERING FROM ANY FUCKING MENTAL STUFF ?

AM I ?
AM I PYSCHO ?!?!

TELL ME TELL ME .
IF NOT MY BRAIN IS GONNA BURST ANY TIME.
SOOON ~

TELL ME PLEASE

IM NOT CRAZY RIGHT ?
NO RIGHT ?
PLEASE.

i got nothing

2009-02-07T13:58:00.004+08:00

home on a saturday again.

pathetic me again.

i gotta clean my room today.

its so messy and dusty.

i ask mummy to buy me

a new bed.

and then the next morning,

she was like,

" abeh nanti kalau nurul dah kahwin macam maner ? "

aiyahhhh den dat one i dunno lah.

i dont intend to get married already.

i dont know.

i think a lot yesterday.

i won't have my freedom

when im married.

erwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

thats what i hate the most.

alright.

im still young xia.

stop acting like some

fucking adults lah.

thinking about marriage n stuff.

i wanna go and have fun today.

and i wanna go to sentosa

at night later.

with whoever wanna go with me.

i still remember

my first night outing to sentosa

with afiqbaby.

oliver ~

candles ~

party like a rockstar ~

haha

okay i think i should

better stop thinking about the past.

and make this present

thing happen.

i know you can do it hamid.

yr like what 17 ?

going 18 ? omg !

come on !

you can do this !

even if yr on yr own !

you got brains to think.

do some thinking you fat ass!

dont just hang around

the laptop and play some

stupid pet society online

or chat with yrself on msn.

dont be a pathetic loser!

yes i wont be a pathetic loser.

i wont depend on sum other

people for happiness.

i wont depend on sum other

people for love.

you, yes me!, can love love love

yourself as much or maybe even better

den sum other peeps out there.

dont ever let "it" bring you down!

okay enough said.

bye

shitty

2009-02-05T21:58:00.003+08:00

thrusday sux.
shitting for like almost 4 times
in the morn.
what a bad start.

think n think n think n think.
god.
i cant do it.

it takes,
one step at a time ~

sometimes i like to be alone.
wandering anywhr.
crying in the middle of the nights.
so ppl wont know.

i tthink i need some counselling.
i think im suffering from
depression or sumting.
i think tooo much.

yr lying to yrself
when you say you dont care.
actually..
i do care..
about what ppl say.
always telling myself not to care.

you know it sux.
having this feeling.
like the whole freaking world
is turning back on you!

bye

why pot ?

2009-02-03T22:15:00.003+08:00

happy birthday sweetheart.
ily.

i told her that this time its diff.
yeah yeah yeah.
typical ans.
but seriously. i dont know
how to explain.
hes like the sweetest thingg eva.
you know girlss.

i can just go on n on ~

*sigh*

anyway..school sux.
hahahahah.
cmbio mock exam sux.
presentation sux.
and oh .. btw.
if you dont like doing those
projects alone.. then dont.
why cant we freaking do it
together as a group.

whatever.

im so happy today i wont let this spoil my mood.
im so happy.

im so happy.
im so happy.
im so happy.

i wanna get married tomorrow!
hahaha
nak kahwin pls.
hahah mentel.

been eating non stop.
im pregnant.

the other day i was drunk.
i ran as fast as i can
cos i thought the others were behind
me running, together.
and then i wanna jump and fly
cos i was freaking happy.
but *snap*
sidah save me.
cos i was actually on the mrt platform,
running ~
i almost mampos sial.
thanks sidah.
im sorry.

bye~

SHEEEESSSHHHAAA WITH MY LOVELYS MUAH MUAH MUAHHHH ~

2009-01-31T22:59:00.002+08:00

SAYANG SIDAH ~ !!

SAYANG AFIQ ~ !!

TONG SENG ~ !!

HAHAHA HUGE TETEK !

NAD N SITI ~ !!

HAZIQ ~!!

HAHAHA HAZIQ'S SHADES ~

P RAMLEE PULAU UBIN CHESTER BACKSTREET BOYS GANGSTER SIOL

SAYANG NAD ~ !!

ANJING

PRETTY AFIQ ~

<3>

HAHAH CUTE PE ~

HUH ? KAU NK BERAK ? HAHAHAHHHA

PRETTY NAD ~

HAZIQ MABOKK ~

SITI PUN MABOK ~ HAHAHAH NO LAHH :P:p:p:pp::P::::P

<3> I LOIKE ~ CLOSING MY EYES

<3> <3> <3> AIYAHHH KHALIS HAIR SO RIMASS LAH.

HAHAHAHAH

<3>

BUKIT BATOK PLAZA ~

PRETTY SID ~

catch me if you can,

2009-01-28T23:40:00.003+08:00

i love today.

a lot.

i just realised..

ive grown fatter.

im always eating n eating.

im always eating when im down.

or stress up or something.

if im happy...

i'll be tooo happy to think about food.

anyway school sux.

dont even bother coming

to school today.

or maybe even tomorrow.

i need to start my diet plan all over again.

come on hamid.

gotta jog tmrw ~

take care people

make love

not war!

hahahah !

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-01-27T11:48:00.004+08:00

my weekends pretty crazy.
wow.

fucking awesome.
happy cny!

sorrryy no pics.
was drunk.
duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

my head spinning right round right now.
right round like a record baby.

bye

whatever

2009-01-19T21:47:00.004+08:00

pretty shitty.

when yr so fucking tired.

sleep and awake by this stupid loud deep voice.

and den u try to get back to sleep.

but u cant. because its so noisy.

i hate home.

serious shit. hahhha.

i did not say i hate the people living in it.

okay wth ? why did i even think ppl would think that ?

hahahahhha.

weekends pretty shitty too.

hahahhha.

i didnt get to go karaokeyying.

i didnt get to go taka again.

i didnt get to buy that freaking dress.

i need more bras.

coach told me i gain weight ?

wow. nope not crying.

just sad.

bye.

i think alicia keys is right hehee !

2009-01-15T19:12:00.004+08:00

K A R M A !
weird thing happen today.
suddenly it cross my mind.
haha.

you make me cry in school.

canteen to be specific.

infront of like what ? everyone.

its freaking pathetic.

it was the most embarrassing moment i had.
you people dont know how i went through
after that.
it really sux.
like hell.

and i remember back then.
people making fun of my fucking
thick lips and my ugly breast.
and how i used to cover my freaking
mole with a stupid plaster.
and how i ugly i was.
how everyone was always staring at me
and laughing at me.
and how everyone is not satisfied with what im doing.
& how i was soooo insecure about
the way i wear
the way i walk
the way i smile
the way everything i do

at one point of time i even think
of quiting school.
i just feel like running away from this world.
and live on my own. like some planets.
with some cute & friendly aliens as my friends.

but during that point of time i started
to you know.. erm be more open ?
yeahh. i started to erm look around and
blah blah blah blahh.

and from then on.. i learn
to pick myself up and tell myself..
YOU LIVE YR OWN LIFE.
hahha and then it happen.
my i-dont-fucking-care-attitude.
my upside down smile(hahha !ceyy!)
my not sincere laughter
my.. i dont know.

yes i really hate my secondary school life.

it sux it sux it sux.

BUT ! OH COME ON!
THAT WAS LIKE WHAT ?
a few years ago ?
huhu.

thanks to that person..
im sooo... fucking happy right now.
& that i know the true meaning of
life and friendship.

hehe typical story.
but seriously..
it really happen to me.
the person who stood by me at that point of time
was sidah.
and then it was elfa ad bal n my ex bf.

hahah alright.
school was okay i guess
right now im ordering some pizza !
nannny nannyy poo poo !
to xh ! hahah
im suchaa fatty pig!

okay this pic below~
can someone buy for me that dress ?
its at foreverrr twenty one !!!
i really want that dress sooo badly !
:(

take care everybodyyy!

l o v e

2009-01-12T23:46:00.002+08:00

oh my god.
i am so madlyyy in love.
no not with travis.
hehe

<3_<3

THIS SONG IS SO DANGEROUSS ~

2009-01-10T13:49:00.002+08:00

HOME ON A SATURDAY SUXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX.

ALL SHE KNOW IS TO CRY
ALL HE KNOW IS TO SHOUT

FUCK IT.

I CANT FUCKING WAIT TO TURN 21.
AND MOVE OUT.
STAY IN AN APARTMENT.
WHERRE I CAN PARTY EVERY FRIDAY NIGHT.
GO OUT ON A SATURDAY NIGHT.
AND SLEEP THE WHOLE DAY ON SUNDAY.

U KNOW WHAT ?
I THINK I RATHER GO TO THAT STUPID SCHOOL EVENT.
DEN STAYING AT HOME AND WATCHING
SOME FUCKING ONLINE MOVIES.

WAIT.
MAYBE I CAN GO OUT.

alright. good luck.
bye

VERY HIGHHHH TEA

2009-01-10T13:13:00.005+08:00

fool for love, fool on fire ~

2009-01-06T23:40:00.004+08:00

i ask xuan hui to type my name in chi today(hp)
hahaha.
random.

i love soon kueh.
she always think i bully her.
hahahahahhhha !

i just feel like blogging that.
and i wonder if bf is angry that i was rude otf just now.
before i went to sleep.
yes. the answer to everything.
ceyy. no lahh.

i wanna go india.
mummy ask me to get married there.
she said i'll look like one of the indians when i come back.
and with shah rukh khan next to me.

i miss my grandma a lot.
guess what ? i dream of her just now.
i was hugging her so freaking tightly.
i mean, in the dream.
pretty nice dream.
i dont even wanna wake up.
but i love my boy a lot that i gotta wake up.

and so i cant get back to sleep right now.
cos tmrw i got class from 2p.m to 4p.m

thank you.
GOODNIGHT !

happy tuesday

2009-01-06T17:50:00.005+08:00

YOU CHEAT ME

YOU MOTHERFUCKER ~

I HATE this kind of people.

why cant you fucking own up.

school ...

suchaaa draggg .

i was in a very fucking bad mood otw to sch.

i was freaking tired in school.

and keeps calling.

irritating.

FUCK IT FUCK IT.

its time to have a nice proper descent post.

next time i guess.

because i freaking need a happy pill right fucking now.

i dont understand why the fuck am i feeling this way.

i dont even know whether any one out there is playing with my fat heart.

i dont even wanna know actually.

and btw i saw a wolf today.

actualy a dog.

but its a wolf.

and i cant fucking get it why am i always being so fucking fucked up

when i blog.

because im freaking tired right now.

and i want you so badly right now.

bye

THANKS TO FREAKING RED BULL

2009-01-05T21:00:00.006+08:00

first day of school..
turns out to be okaay. actually kinda fun uh! hhhahahaa.
i eat macD today.
cos i got 4 hrs of break!
and we take a lot of webcam pictures!
and i hate that indian worker at macD.
cos i think she dont like me :(
oh yeah after 5 laps, we went to the lib
and mr woodcocky cock sux.
or not. i dunno. i went home.
oh and btw...
i didnt sleep for erm yesterday.
tossing and turning.
look at the hp.
freaking 6a.m
so i turn on the comp.
complete my freaking assignment.
and off to school.
i was freaking hyper.
all thanks to
REEEDDDDDDDDDBULLLLLLL ~

THIS IS THE PIC OF ERM LAST WEEKEND ?
YEAH WENT TO ARAB ST. NOT FOR TYPICAL SHHHEEESHAA SESSION.
BUT TO MOSHI CAFE.
MEET MUMMYS FRIEND.
THEY HAVE SOME CUTE SMALL GATHERING.
ALL FUNNEH N FUN.

BOOOBY TK LEH ANG.
SINCE WENT TO ARAB ST NEAR HAJI LANE MAHH. DRESS AS ONE. HAHAH ABEH ?!

CEYYY ANGEL. I LIKE ~

OF COS I GOT TO HAVE THE BACK ALLEY PIC MAN ~

AWWWHHH SWEET SEY I. TK LEH ANG

NO ONE EVER KNOW

OUR RELATIONSHIP.

BECAUSE WE'RE LESBIAN. HAHAHAHHA CEYY

SUDDENLY MUMMY FRIEND GO ASK FOR SHEESHAA. DADDDY TRY FIRST UH.

MUMMYS FRIENDD

MUMMYS FRIEND

MUMMYS FRIEND. 7 CHILDREN. WOOOO. SLIM SEXAYY LAH. *ROLL EYES

ME. OF COS. THE TYPICAL MUST HAVE PIC IF YOU SHEEESHAA.

ABEHH.

MCM DRAGON

MUMMYS FRIEND.

SADLY ! YES SADLY ! I GOT NO MUMMY PIC !!! SHE ALSO TRY SHEESHAA YOU KNOW.

BUT TOOO BAD ASAP KECIK. AHAHAHAHAHA.

WHY AM I LIKE THIS ?

bye.

2009-01-05T01:06:00.002+08:00

STARTING SCHOOL IN A FEW MORE HOURS.

ASSIGNMENT NOT DONE.

EVERYTHING NOT PREPARE YET.

IT FEELS LIKE THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.

TO SCHOOL.

APRIL 2008.

JAN 2009.

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

COME ON BITCH !

YOU CAN DO THIS !

YES FUCKING SELFISH

2009-01-03T15:15:00.003+08:00

im not prepared.
to go back to school.

i havent done any of my assignments yet.
because im just plain lazy.

im still in hols mood.
i got this mindset.
that I dont fucking care what happens next.

because no matter what, i wont regret.
yes. i wont regret.

i dont care whats happening around me.
because its doesnt bother me.
doesnt got to do with me.
all i care about is me .
me me me me !
me being happy
me having fun

cos i know, everyone dies
sooner or later.
and they wont get to bring all those fucking
money with them or yr mum or yr dad.

YOU'LL BE ALONE.
NO MATTER FUCKING WHAT.

YOU YOU YOU
ALONE ALONE ALONE
DIE DIE DIE DIE

BYE.

2009-01-02T00:31:00.001+08:00

HAVE I EVER MENTION THAT I LOVE TRAVIS ?

*sigh*

FUCKKKK IT !

2009-01-01T22:44:00.007+08:00

creds : neez :)

creds : nasri

seeee ! the first drawing !

cinta cholestrol!

HAHAHAHAH !

you know.. now i just realised.

who the fuck are my fucking real friends.

its sad. after what you fucking done towards this fucking people.

and this is what i fucking got.

not fucking once but yeah.

like the fucking saying,

one who has many fucking friends,

got no friend actually.

so fuck it.

happy fucking 2009!

because imma get wasted.

and lie my fucking head on xuan hui sayang lap.

and laugh like nobody business.

you know why ?

you wanna know fucking why ?!

becausee

it feels goood !

i miss xuan hui sayang a lot !!

& maymay sayang !! & jenneth sayang too !!

~and yeah it doesnt fucking matter how long or fucking where.

because just being with you is the best thing in this damn world!

i love you.

SILLY GIRL

2008-12-30T16:50:00.007+08:00

i just realise

i got no life.

i can go crazy anytime.

right now.

i got this feeling.

which is hard to describe.

i wonder what other peeps

are doing right now.

im still having a bad cough.

cough cough.

non stop.

i wanna go somewhere.

with you.

just us.

or maybe me.

somewhere..

where there isnt any

trouble

bothering me.

gotta feel better!

tomorrow is what ?!

new years eve !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what is it again ?!

NEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YEARS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wish i can erm live in a hugeee house.

with my lovelys friendss.

and we can party all night long.

and just have fun and be happy

and then travis.........

*sigh*

alright stop

dreaming

HAVE FUN ~

HAPPY 2009 PEOPLE !

my wish.

-license

-wasted

-boyfriend

-better year

-more fun

-less study(not gonna happen)

-bump into travis in sg

-clubs

-partys

-stop coughing

RED IS FOR EMERGENCY

2008-12-27T15:07:00.004+08:00

OH MY FREAKING GOD !

I GOT BLOOD COMING OUT FROM MY SHITHOLE !
NO ! NOT MENSES !
FROM MY ASSHOLE! MIND YOU ! SHITHOLE !
NO I NEVER DID ANY ANAL SEX BEFORE !
ERW! NO FUCKING WAY !

IS IT CANCER ?! OMG ! FREAKING OUT.

AND SMOKING HELPS ME FEEL BETTER.
AINT THAT SICK ANYMORE.
YEAH IT HELPS YOU FOR NOW.
I KNOW.

IM STILL IN A SHOCK STATE !
IM WRAP IN MY TOWEL RIGHT NOW!
WAS BATHING JUST NOW !
OH MY GOD !
BLOOOOD !
I ALMOST FAINT IN THE TOILET~

2008-12-26T00:27:00.006+08:00

i had my long hot bathe.
scrubbing.
cleaning myself.
it feels goood.
to erm relax myself.
to reflect.
cos im not the type of person who likes to
think and brood over some unsolved probs.

and then looking and staring at myself in
the mirror. and i find some
ugly bruises and scar on my body.
and i cried.
only god knows what happen next!

he wanted to give me 20 bucks.
to like what ?
make it up for the things you've done?
haha like the saying;
money cant buy love.

hahahah ! ceyy.

to those who care,
im alright
im okay
im still alive
stilll breathing
still walking
still erm coughing!

haha im sick.
damn.

:)

NOT PERFECT BUT YEAH IM COOL WITH IT,

2008-12-25T17:07:00.000+08:00

HOHO

MERRY

SHIT

MAS !

YES IM HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE RIGHT NOW.
SO PERFECT SO FUCKED UP!

oh well, as you guys know, im grounded.
for life. not trying to be some fucked up american bitches.but yeah im not allowed to go out till next year.and worst still, i dont even have phone to contact any of my friends.

yes how perfect.
yes how lovely.
yes how fun.

thank you santa.
i mean

screw you santa.
ive been with my lappy for like forever.

going blind sooon. yes very sooon.

been watching movies. alone.

at home. in my room.

with bubu.eating ice cream.

(bubu is my bolster btw)
making fats not babies. but fats.

alright!

imma sneak out duing new years eve

i dont fucking care

I.NEED.TO.HAVE.SOME.FREAKING.FUN.

im still thanking god though .

for this lovely life.

for lovely friends.

i dont think life sux.

nope never.

im goood.

hahahaha !

MUAH MUAH MUAH !

HAPPY HOLS PEOPLE ~

SANTA CAN YOU HEAR ME ~

2008-12-22T13:48:00.000+08:00

OLD PHOTO OF ME AND SAYANGSS

i got a lot of photos to upload!

ive been going out every single day.

grrr.

gotta find some time to erm jog!

fatty bom bom !

christmas is coming !

woooohooooooooooooooooooooooo !

DEAREST SANTA BABY,

IM HOPING FOR A HAPPY LIFE.

IM HOPING FOR A ERM A GORGEOUS PRINCE

TO COME AND SAVE ME FROM THIS MISERABLE LIFE.

AND YESSS IM HOPING TO BE RICHH !

AND IM HOPING TO BE WITH MY LOVELYS FRIENDS AND SAYANGS,

ERR FOREVER ?

OKAY MAYBE NOT BUT HOPING OKAY ! I LOVE THEM !

MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAHHH !

LOVE;

NURUL HAMIDAH SALLEH

LOVELYS.

2008-12-21T12:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRETTY AFIQ ! I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH !

yes we celebrate afiq sayang birthday on friday.
of cos i dont forget you. i love you lah !
we gave her a surprise with a handmade cake!
yess handmade okay !
and then off we go to UBIN ! PULAU UBIN!
alright let the picture do the talking.
im off to kallang later !
<3

handmake cake. chocolate oreo cheesecake :)

TC!

YO MOMMA, she gets KRAZY!

2008-12-17T00:28:00.000+08:00

it was erm nice.
i didn't know 'staring game' can lead to that.

are we strangers ?
i keep asking myself that.
are we ?

is it a sign from god ?
god, is it a sign ?

oh whatever it is, it was nice.
erm no. it was wonderful.
its like as if im on top of the world, flying.
hehe no. im not exaggerating.

it was short.
but sweeet.

I'LL END IT HERE.
;)

twilight!

2008-12-15T23:55:00.000+08:00

its goood to have someone listening to yr problem once in a while.
thanks a lot :)

so ive watched twilight ! omfg !
fucking awesome.
sorry xh i dont mind watching it again !
i swear !

so saturday was a shitty day for me.
i reach home at 8a.m and off to malaysia at 9a.m
went there for some seafood.
fucking nice !
prawns is the best damn thing man !

alright nothing much to blog.
just that im having this fucked up life right now.

okay
take care :)